By: Heather

Heather — Thu, 31 Jan 2019 18:07:10 +0000

Brownie cookie dough. Decided to get back to ‘The Stage’ after a twenty year performance absence since I had one epically bad show all those years ago where I bombed a key moment due to nerves…and it was caught for all eternity on video…with copies for the whole cast. Before that I did festivals, with choir, plays and piano. Fast forward to last year when I finally decided after an old friend talked me kicking and screaming into it to do my first audition in years…I felt good…I waited, I lost my mind…and late one night it came the ‘Thanks but…’ So here in 2019 i sit three auditions down…lots of positive feedback for my skills and abilities and nothing….not even a second callback even for a tiny essemble part which I thought I had a better chance as than a lead esp. considering it was for the musical ‘The Wedding Singer’ in a community production and at 39 (although I’ve been told I don’t look a day older than 28) I was too old to be considered for any of those. Mind you fact I cannot dance probably has a lot to do with it….I’m a “Triple Threat” just not in the dancing sense more that I can sing, act and play an instrument….starting to wonder if I have any talent at all….it takes a lot out of me now…I’m tired after all is said and done and the ‘high’ from the performance is gone. I suffer pretty bad anxiety now too due to some stuff that has happened in life (abusive relationship) so just putting myself out there in the first place is hard. I plan on keep trying still there is that voice that says ‘Let’s face it you SUCK’ paired with the 20 year absence and no real a “training” or acting workshops just school productions back in the 90’s. I dunno one day the right role will come…until then I’ll just sit in the audience and dream.

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